It would be good if I were bipolar and knew I would bounce back but the reality is I have been fucked for years.

I have been raped several times as an adult and again as a teenager and also as a child by my father.

All this abuse –

I want to kill myself now that I have remembered some of the abuse that I endured.

It seemed ok at Kimberley but was beaten up there too.

Started at 15 and it got really bad at 17

Two years of being hit

I want a drink so badly –

I will have a drink pretty soon and I can’t even be arsed going to buy washing powder or anything

I’ll need a bag and I’ll waitvtollnitbis sunny 🌞