I am so fucked that it is not funny / I cannot believe they had me on 75 haladol

That was fucking me – I want to kill myselr and this feeling mdt but go :

This feeling may not go –

I cannot face life in my situation

I wish my mother had never slept with me – she even apologised for not being a proper mum on her death bed.

She hated herself that’s why she died. That’s what I subconsciously thought for years and years.

Cancer –

My brain has slowed down and there are things I should be doing.

Like going to buy washing powder and soap etc –

I am so ducked in my mood that I can be bothered.😕

Punk music – so ducking stupid :

Don’t buy weights there is monotony.

I will have to go into town tomorrow – with the sociopaths ‘which is what I thought weee in town on a Saturday :

Sensivitive claim – I really can’t be fucked as it will kill me emotionally.

I cannot take anymore shit right now :

I don’t know when I dissociate – it’s DID which is fuckef beyond belief.