I a hard man which is unfortunate. My father doesn’t give a flying shit about me.

Laugh – they just thought I was mental and when I came out of 27 at 25, they laughed and said I had hurt my arm in there.

It was broken –

I have DID, from all the abuse heaped on me.

I wish it wasn’t real, and my parents refused to talk about mental illness or even invite me to dinner.

I had a dream about Meredith last night.

The only girl I have ever loved.

That was a fuck up –

I have become very isolated –

I need a job

Security is what I thought it was in my dream last night.

But then I thought I had charges, and the middle class life will not work for me anyway.

I might as well just get wasted and this is what we always thought.

At least I didn’t have nightmares last night.

My hair is too short – I no longer look alt

O so a little with my better clothes.

I wish my parents had lived me without the sex – pedophiles that’s what they were.

Dissociation identy disorder /

I should have never been born

I will have a day of pain today, and my body is totalled.

I’m retired –

An online journal – omg, it’s the reason why I don’t kill myselr , whichbi can do in tge weekends

We ger let alone weekends