The dissociation might be bullshit but why do I repress stuff and can I stop it happening in the future

There are so many people who hate me because of my dissociation and repression

I used to blame it on drinking

That wasn’t really the problem or was it?

My akter protector once told me I was an alcoholic

It was normalised for fucks sake drinking sucks

I wish I didn’t have to deal with Lyn tomorrow :

I’m depressed as all fuck