I can end it today if I want too – part of me is waiting for things to get better

Logically backpacking will work if I’m in a dorm and can afford it.

I’ll just move around till my soul and brain fixes.

Then come back to Wellington

In two months with this constant bullshit I’ll just jump in from of that train –

I can feel myself slowly going down the gurgler.

Wellington was once great for me but I have been seriously injured.

There is something. Else going on with my family

I have DID or is it OSDD?

Who cares, and who knows –

I just want to get drunk and go fuck life – 100 disprins and the unit is not where I am going

Maybe I’m skitso effective?

Fuck who knows?

Yip I have reached the point where I’m definitely going to kill myself

Similar cresant – because it’s my way to say to the world what my family and Wellington did to me.

They will understand in about 20 years – my surviving family just get off Scott free.

I keep trying o think of the positives , but reality – there are nine.

My life has been shit.

I’m on the way out and I have definitely decided.

I was saying goodbye to the world this week. No one knows except me –

Things take timtge psychiatrist seems to be more in the loop than everyone else