So now I know logically what I have to do and symbolism is bullshit

It’s what your thinking about that happens –

I can keep myself alive till slightly over 60

I’ll miss out on retirement and this is unfortunate.

Obviously I will feel soom and gloom tomorrow and probably tonight as well

Bloody hell – my suscuidality and depression can seriously fuck shit up for everyone

Saturday will be a good day

Sunday I’ll feel like going to the soup kitchen, but it’s wise to keep away from- there as fuck iOS go there, and someone may want a fight because I was so aggressive and crazy over my two months of homelessness.

I cannot stand this –

My family I’m got to the point today where I don’t give a fuck and why should at 55?

Backpacking – a stupid idea

I’ll go and live in Wellington

I have done the work re Atweia – I’ll go there maybe but reality I only have to think u till Thuresday

How can there be three charges?

What did I say or do?

This is why I am ringing my lawyer after Herey gets his shot together and calls me with his number –

He’s a bit of a strange one and I ducked his wife – once or nearly

I cannot remember as it was too long ago

Yip I remember we just got naked