I will be asked to leave today, and it will probably be in the morning.

That girl Lyn says I will not be able to stay, but the psychiatrist says I will be able too.

It’s up to the field co worker if they scept the funding.

I’m harder today and a little sore in my legs –

I cannot really understand what the problem is –

I need two weeks to sort out my mind, and I’m looking at a flat today at 1.30 on Thorndon Quay

I cried in my sleep last night

Finger was to be killed by dogs but then the powers that be turned them into cats, and she was to be killed by her own type.

I felt betted as this wasn’t as scary.

Saying trust in the psych team :

So off to Wellington I go and I’ll buy a vape from here –

People are crazy and the alters are 99 percent in the background.

I’ll have to keep my phone charged and I’ll have to visit the soup kitchen when I’m at the Willis on Sunday –

The thing is I need to keep away from Newtown because of all the gang members that are there and I thought I was protecting the Tuhoe church from 1973, which was also when I was born

I despise racism but if I go to jail on the 9th I’ll be surrounded by racket people.

The skitso guy gave me a number here for a family protection house in the Wellington police station.

Duck that – the police never believed what my father and my mother did to me, so I’ll avoid it.

It would be good to go to Auckland today.

Maybe I’ll go to Ōtaki tomorrow?

One night of homelessness –

Laugh – my body is running about 16 percent of what it should be and I really need another week here.

Why I cannot stay is beyond me.

I’m not a gang member and this place cannot be used as a bail address –

I’m transitioning from hospital

I’m not even in emotional pain this morning because I know my family hated me.

Laugh – for decades I though they cared, and they were just callous

I hope to go today, and it’s going to be very annoying being homeless.

I’ll remember not to buy disprins on the way or I will take them tonight when I get depressed.

My mood is volatile –

I’m going to try and wait till I’m sixty to kill myswlf

The oldest alter says he will be so bored.

But he will write and write about other stuff.

In depth thinking about day to day stuff that happens around me.

It’s all for my son –

He is the reason I have decided to stay alive.

Maybe I can offer some insights on living for him here?

Maybe I should eventually write on substack?