I reminded myself today that I just have always thought and so did everyone, that I just had depression.

Did it is or is it OSDD?

Fuck knows ?

But I know that predominantly I have depression

It was good for me to get out of here today, and try to find a better way

I’ve stopped thinking about symbolism – it is total bullshit.

I’m thinking of what it is like to be alone.

My parents and brother they didn’t ever want to know –

I’m quite intelligent and I’ve lived my life on cocaine and woman – so to speak

Speed and shit in my late twenties or early thirties.

I enjoyed bars and alcohol

I’m an ex alcoholic –

It’s true that the mentally ill have a higher degree of lateral thinking.

I. Now studying skitso and moving back to Wellington.

Fuck this place – I could fuck it up just by going to a bar .

It’s Friday and I’m lucky not to be homeless.

They didn’t want to accept me –

I think court is pretty serious –

I have three charges and I don’t know what they are

I’ll now ring and it won’t be in my bedroom

Jerry will lot wing back