Just do what I want –

Trust no one –

I will have a place in a few weeks

My smarter alter will do other things –

He will write the unquiet mind ‘a little differently’

I am nearing the end and no longer am I looking for recovery ;

I know know what I know and I have recovered enough

I am dunctional

I guess my son cannot be bothered talking to me

Fuck I would like an email though and I would love to figure out who he is.

I can offer nothing except advise and I suppose he would not listen anyway

The whites guy just gave me a numbed

I’ll not ring it

I have a plan and Saturday night will be bloody annoying

If I had gone to plimerton I would have been so depressed that I would have decided to end my life

Maybe I can get a bit more time before I end my life.

Again it seems I have decided to try and stay alive.

Ducking weird shit

And it is amazing what pain killers will do for one

Most of my crap mood comes from the fact that I feel wrecked because of my 12 percent recovery or is it dive ?

It will be five after court

Laugh – I’m noting more and I am recovering.

So I even need this haladol?

My shrink seems to think so

I’ll try and find a wife to recover with in my dreams

Laugh – I’ll go homeless tomorrow and the pub in Lower Hutt before bus it to the bridge

Duck I cannot believe I’m staying there again.

A drink on the way and fuck it I’ll go back to drinking for fifteen minutes, but a vape and a bit of a croissant.

I really want to keep away from the soup kitchen and the city mission and exam

I am so fucking crazy