I am too traumatised to go and look at flats

No one will help

I don’t care, but I do about everyone else

I can put myself in anyone’s shoes

And this is what gifted people can do but I’m old

Yoga would fix me physically

I’ve never been happy, and I was an alcoholic –

I don’t even want a drink, but I know this will allow me to kill myself

It’s does against all natural thinking to kill myselr

If I was alone here with my bourbon I would go to the supermarket

Actually that pharmacy and bu lots of disprins.

I want to die today and I’ll tell no one

It’s a shame I will be under this blanket , homeless, and probably in the Hutt somewhere, when I take my spring

I fucking hope they don’t find me

I don’t even want a home

This is my plan – and I’m leaving this earth

Purgatory doesn’t exist

We only get one life time

I have just had breakfast and I went to the safe

I have 1400 left

Maybe I’ll book onto the Willis tomorrow?

Hope so and then maybe in a week I’ll not be so depressed and I can actually go backpacking

Pointless in Wellington

I’m even bared from places I have never stayed

I have to lave here

Shit that’s good

Willis and disprins and the Mill is just around the corner.

Bourbon and disprins in my room

Thank God I’ll not be homeless when I do it

I want to ring and book it in now, but I cannot as my efposs cars is cancelled because of the bullshit that happened at wars 27

I was assaulted there and no one wrote it down – they thought I was racist

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